How much do you think my baby would hate me if I cut right now?

If i cut right now would that make me an awful mother?

I just want to get fucked up and cut..

dad just saw my cuts…:/

I caved in and cut saturday night…I felt like complete shit about it and felt like I failed myself and let down others…especially Levi.. Well…here we go again. 2 days cut free.

starting over is always hard. 

seeing that “I love you” on my post from last night really made my day and made me feel so much better. I’m glad I didn’t cave in and cut last night.

I’m over a month clean but right now having some anxiety and wanting to cut…wish I had someone to talk to..

I am proud to say I am (almost) one month cut free!! And at this time I am not struggling to not do it again (which I am also proud to say). I am not proud to say that I stole a razor blade from work…I just held it and thought to myself “wow, you’re actually not dragging it across your wrist OR having a panic attack!” I’m sure no one else gives a single fuck because they know i’m bound to crack and breakdown again, but to me, this IS a big deal. Maybe I can beat this…only time will tell.

xx

this makes me cry everytime i see it…

I fucked up in my recovery. I broke down and cut today..such a disappointment. I had gone 5 weeks until today…I’m a failure!

I’m trying really hard to recover and this time i mean it! I want to get better and i’m set on stopping this. I was doing very well but i had a breakdown this past weekend and was very, very disappointed in myself..more so than ever. Since then i haven’t cut..i know it’s only been two days but i’m taking baby steps! My goal RIGHT NOW is to go a week. No cutting, puking, burning, scratching, biting, or starving. Wish me luck!!? 

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